Baby Showers are a Blessing . . .

My niece is expecting her first child and I’m excited!  The baby is a boy, and he’s due on Christmas day.  What a gift!  Her due date is God’s reminder to us that all good and perfect gifts are from Him. Since my niece and her husband were dealing with infertility, I prayed and asked God to give them a child, and I know from experience He wants to answer those prayers.  So, I was not surprised to hear the marvelous news.  He wants abundant life for us and children are a part of that.

When I pray for a woman to be given a child, I always ask for her to conceive, but I’ve learned from my life, God has other ways of giving us our children and I leave the details of their arrival to Him.  In other words, I ask with expectation of His goodness towards us, but I know in His love and wisdom, sometimes God takes different routes to answer our prayers due to His view of the “big” picture of our lives.

I attended her baby shower last evening, and found myself experiencing a twinge of the old pain.  The, “you’ll never know what it’s like to carry a child in your body, to feel it grow, to be complete.”  I had to deal with the lie satan whispered in my ears.  At first he surprised me with his ambush.  I cried momentarily, then anger welled up inside me.  I told him in no uncertain terms, he had no place in my life and no right to spread his untruths.  I belong to Jesus, and I am a mother, in EVERY way that’s important after the child is born, and I am complete in that role and more importantly, complete in Christ and His view of me.

The lies stopped; my joy in God’s answered prayer in my and my niece’s life bubbled to the surface, and I enjoyed the shower, the sweet gifts that were given, the corny games played at such events and the camaraderie of women, experiencing with our friends and loved ones the immeasurable joy the arrival of a baby brings to all those connected with its life.

I watched my niece laugh, smile wistfully and cry.  Bittersweet emotions so close to the surface.  I was with her in those feelings.  Her father, my brother, died of cancer seven years ago at the age of 48.  He didn’t get to walk her down the aisle and he will not be at the hospital on the happy day her first child is born.  My brother loved airplanes, played a mean guitar and sang with talent and emotion.  My niece inherited his talents, and I wondered, which of those skills will pass to the next generation?

I honor of her dad, the baby’s nursery has airplanes and bears on the wall, and someone gave her little son a onesie, complete with an embroidered red electric guitar.  We cried.  We remembered.  We wished he would be here to laugh, kiss and cuddle his precious grandson. But God is good.  My brother’s bloodline passes to his own children he loved so dearly, and now, his grandchildren.

So, I thank God for baby showers and life that continues, even though there was a time in my life I did anything I could not to attend them.  Now, I see them as a blessing, a reminder of life and a celebration of God’s answered prayer.

I want to pray with you if you want a child.

“Father God, I thank you for your boundless love, mercy and goodness towards us.  If we as parents want to give good gifts to our children, how much more do You want to give good gifts to us.  You are not a man, and You do not lie.  I remind You of Your word, now, as I ask for the blessing of a child for the women praying with me.  Heal their bodies and their husband’s body if he needs your touch.  Mend their spirit and mind with Your love and goodness and give them their heart’s desire.  Give them the child they so desperately want.  You want life, not death.  We ask for that life now, in the name of Your son Jesus Christ.  Do for them what you’ve done for many other women I’ve prayed for.  You gave me children and now, my neice.  Let me hear from the women who pray this prayer with me the good news of Your blessing in their lives.  Thank you for loving us more than we can even ask or think.  Thank you for all the babies that will be born because of Your goodness.  In the name of Jesus we ask this.  AMEN!”

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Peace and Infertility-Can they Coexist?

Another toss and turn night,unable to sleep again.

Like a litany, my mind chanted the medical terms I’d heard at the doctor’s office.

I wanted to shut off the dripping faucet in my head, yet afraid the pipe would clog and rupture . . . submerging me in my pain.

I knew about mental drowning, the fear that suffocates, and at the last moment relents, shoves you to the surface gasping for air and you find yourself alive in your nightmare.

Unresolved pain sets you afloat in a leaky boat sailing for deep water. It’s one of the ways the enemy, satan, seeks to kill, steal and destroy.

I didn’t have to drown, I could float in the calm bay of the Hoy Spirit, securely moored, anchored to His presence alive inside me.

I remembered floating.

Like a father teaching his child to swim, all I had to do was ask Him to hold me safely in the water, until I could relax in His arms, trusting He would not let me go.

At the time, I didn’t know His life-preserver was already around me, or surely I would have succumbed to the unrelenting waves.

John 14:27
Peace I leave with you; My [own] peace I now give and bequeath to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.

In my post Hope-God Revealing His Heart to Us I shared my heart about my own struggles with peace, hope and trusting God in the midst of my infertility.  Please don’t despair.  God knows you heart, your hope.  He knows about the sleeplessness, the pain.

God is the captain of the ship that rescues those lost at sea, the lighthouse guiding us safely around the rocks and into harbor. He is here now to heal your broken heart.  Let Him, ask Him.

Peace isn’t contingent upon the changing circumstances around us.  The only peace that’s lasting comes from the inside. Peace is God who does not change, who does not lie.

Yes, I remembered floating in peace and I asked the holy Spirit to bring it up from inside me.  It was always there.  It didn’t come down from heaven on angel wings.  When you make Jesus Lord of your life, He gives you through His Holy Spirit everything we need to live victoriously through Christ Jesus.  When what we need is not being manifested in our lives, we have to call it up.

Jesus, the great physician, healed my broken heart and gave me two children.  He can do the same for you.

I think in my next post we’ll pray about that.






God’s Promises Are Yes & Amen!

Father God, You teach me what is good for me and lead me along the path that I should follow.

If I listen to and obey your commands, then peace overshadows me and flows through me like a gentle river and righteousness rolls over me like waves in the sea.

You have written my name on the palm of your hand. Those who trust in you will never be put to shame.

Contend with those who contend with me.  You are for me and nothing can stand against me.

Expose areas in my life that need Your healing and restoration.

Your promises are yes and amen!

You are God, You do not change.  Even my love for you is because You loved me first.

I long for You because You long for me.  I desire to know You because You woo me.

Nothing of me.  All is You.

You breathed on me and in me.  You spoke my destiny over me as a promise You cannot break.

You placed the seeker voice in my heart to find my purpose, to find You.  I finally see your promises and You are the same.

I try to let go, forget the past, knowing I’m blessed by Your mercy and steadfast love.

Accelerate Your Holy Spirit’s work in me to catch up with where You want me now!  Breathe on me again. Let You winds blow over me shrouding me in Your smoke, Your fire, the heady essence of You, God.

Your word is alive for the present.  The past is here for the present.  You are Your word and Your word is You.  I will peel away the layers, to see You.

Change me permanently.  Change me on the inside, where You live in me.

I love You Father.  Thank You for loving me first.



All God’s Creation Is Good

Last weekend my husband and I spent three days in Colorado driving the highways and mountain passes bathed in aspen gold and orange.  Each bend in the narrow roads lured us on with the promise of the next stunning vista ahead, and we were not disappointed.

Some of the local residents told us the views were the best they’d seen in thirty years.  We stopped at any pull-off area we could to take photos.  My husband is quite artistic and has a good eye for setting up the frame to capture the best picture.  We have numerous examples of his talent to remind us of this, and past trips.

I share this with you because, at many of these photo-taking stops, I stood beside the car or walked to the road’s edge and found myself telling God how awesome His creation is.  Praise erupted from my heart and tumbled out my mouth in gratitude for the beauty and for opportunity He gave us to view it.  I had some pain issues during the trip and was not physically doing the best, but even that could not restrain my enthusiasm or love of the magnificent scenery.

 Genesis 1:31 Amplified Bible (AMP)    And God saw everything that He had made, and behold, it was very good (suitable, pleasant) and He approved it completely.

God made us.  His creation is good, very good and when we live in right relationship with Him, we accomplish what He created us for in every area of our lives.  That however, is the key.  Living in right relationship with God.  Which means we have to get to know Him as a friend and a father.  You can only do that by spending time with Him in prayer, praising, asking questions, being still, listening to His heart and then, going about your life based on the things you learned from sitting at His feet.

I get myself in trouble every time I neglect this most important area of my life.

In my post, Adoption-An Answer for the Pain, I shared with you the devastating loss of my first child through miscarriage after eight endless years of infertility.  I suffered a miscarriage again, later in my life. During each of these life crises, I tore myself apart by believing lies I told myself, that I was useless, and a failure as a woman.  While battling the infertility and dealing with the first miscarriage, I negatively questioned, begged and finally railed against God for His seeming non-caring of my life issues.  In reality, nothing was further from the truth, and after some healing time had passed; He opened the door to adoption and now I have two children and two grandchildren!

I got my self into this self-pity arena by not spending time with God as His child and my Father.  Sharing intimacy with someone is not time filled with blaming and anger. God patiently waited for me to heal, all the time aiding my recovery by the power of the Holy Spirit, and I did’nt even know it was happening. He loved me then, and He loves me now.  Just like He loves you.  We are His creation, His children, and He loves us with a good Father’s heart.

If you’re telling yourself you’re worthless, useless, a failure, or that God has abandoned you, those are lies from the enemy, (satan).  Recognize them as lies and do not receive those falsehoods into your spirit.  When you spend large amounts of time with someone, you pick up their traits and mannerisms and incorporate them into your own life.  I want that from God.  Not only for Him to abide in me, but for me to live in Him, become like Him.  So, when you hear those lies in your head.  Rise up!  Say NO! Your are God’s creation, His child and He loves you.

It’s a journey.  A path we’ll travel our whole lives.  Sometimes, we’ll step off the path, get back on, make some wrong turns and perhaps, even turn around and walk back before we right ourselves again.


John 3:16

New International Reader’s Version (NIRV)  “God loved the world so much that he gave his one and only Son. Anyone who believes in him will not die but will have eternal life.