A Baby’s Prayer

Here are the lyrics to a wonderful, poignant song written by Scott Brasher and Kathy Troccoli. The song is on Kathy’s album, “Love and Mercy”.

There are videos on You Tube you can watch, as well.

A Baby’s Prayer

I can hear her talking with a friend
I think it’s all about me
Oh how she can’t have a baby now
My Mommy doesn’t see

That I feel her breathe, I know her voice
Her blood, it flows through my heart
God you know my greatest wish is that
We’d never be apart

But if I should die before I wake
I pray her soul You’ll keep
Forgive her Lord, she doesn’t know
That You gave life to me

Do I really have to say goodbye
Don’t want this time to be through
Oh please tell her that I love her Lord
And that You love her too

‘Cause if I should die before I wake
I pray her soul You’ll keep
Forgive her Lord, she doesn’t know
That You gave life to me

On the days when she may think of me
Please comfort her with the truth
That the angels hold me safe and sound
‘Cause I’m in Heaven with You
I’m in Heaven with You

Your child, created by loving father God lives inside you. Please let your child live. Don’t have an abortion. Have an ultrasound; see your child living and growing inside you. Give God a chance to work in your life and in the life of your child.

Donna


Walk In The Light In Front Of You

During my work week, I spend lunch times reading, praying, listening to my favorite music, or to the radio.  Today as I flipped through the stations, I heard a minister say, “You know those old lanterns didn’t cast much light.”  I remained on that particular station and listened to a few more minutes of his story.  He said when he was very young, he would follow his dad down a road in the countryside that didn’t yet have electricity in that area.  His father held an old lantern in front of them to see where to walk, and as long as he followed his dad, he was safe, and didn’t get lost.  The lantern only shined light at their feet, and did not show them the road beyond.  They had no idea what lay ahead.  Was there a ditch, a bend in the road, a washout, an animal or snake?  They could only see far enough to walk the path right in front of them.

I changed stations to catch some music, but couldn’t put the minister’s lantern comment out of my mind.  The Holy Spirit nudged my heart and said, “That’s how the Father leads you most of the time.  His light to guide your life path, but always wanting you to stay close to Him for safety and direction, and when you do, you make it to the destination He’s leading you to.”

Wow, how many times in my life has that been the case?  Almost every day!  God lights our path with his word, during prayer as we ask for guidance or help, the Holy Spirit speaks to us if we keep our heart towards the Father.  Sometimes, He lights our path through people and circumstances, through pain and joy.  These are just a few of the things that come to mind.  He may use nature-His creation, or a song, artwork, a book, but something illuminates right in front of us.  I love that about God, when my light bulb comes on and I say,” O.K., I see what you’re doing, now.”

I believe God gives us dreams and prophetic words to help guide us, but usually, it’s the constant truth of His word, prayer and the voice of the Holy Spirit. 

I wish He’d say, “In six months, this particular thing is going to happen, so get ready, or, next year you’ll be at a different job and there will be a new child in your life.”  We think that would be good, if God just audibly told us our future; but we would worry, try to manipulate details and avoid doing other things He wants us to do.  Being human, we’d probably mess it up.  He knows our frailties, and He wants us to get to know Him.  We can only do that by spending time with Him, talking, worshiping and LISTENING.  So, for our good, Father God knows to shine light on the path just at our feet, and trust Him enough to follow along behind to the destiny His great love has provided for us. 

Besides, how many people would hear God if He wanted to give you His long-term plans for your life?  I’m sorry to say, not very many.  Being able to hear the voice of the Holy Spirit takes a personal decision to make Jesus Christ your Lord and Savior. Even after that, it takes time to recognize His voice, which is usually “still and small”.  You need a repentant heart, and the genuine desire to seek God’s face and get to know Him.  It’s something I seek in my life.  I ebb and flow.  I feel close and far away, but I know His Spirit lives inside me, guiding me, loving me, and like a good parent, chastising me when necessary.  Unconditional love.  

So, when something happens in your life you don’t understand, or when you make choices you wish you could reverse, or choices you shouldn’t have made, He’s there, moving the lantern, saying,”It’s alright.  I’m here.  Follow My light. I love you, and if you’ll ask, I’ll forgive and cleanse you.  Don’t be afraid.  I have a plan.  I KNOW THE ROAD AND I’LL LEAD YOU IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION.”

Donna

Adoption, Abortion and the “October Baby” Movie

Gut wrenching, poignant and truthful, are just a few of the things I have to say about the movie I saw on Saturday, “October Baby”.  The movie is about a college age girl named Hannah, who discovers not only that she was adopted, but that she was the child of a failed abortion attempt.  The movie shares the 180 degree emotional upheavals of her life and her ultimate resolution of these feelings and the discoveries Hannah makes along the way. I don’t want to spoil the movie for those of you who haven’t seen it, so I won’t say more.

 First, I want to say, having two adopted children of my own,  you should ALWAYS tell them they are adopted.  Start when they’re very young with various things that are age appropriate for their understanding, and add to the details as conversations and situations happen, like birthdays and other family members delivering their babies and tell them how their arrival was different into your family, but NO LESS loved, awaited and prayed for.  Children are very accepting and curious, and when they grow up in a loving, safe environment, all the questions can be answered with love and respect.  Don’t offer more information than is necessary, and let the child take the lead as they grow older and may or may not want more info. Don’t cross bridges that may never need to be crossed, and if the bridges do appear, God in His grace and wisdom will help you with the answers.

The children you adopt know only you as mom or dad unless you adopted older children.  You were the one or ones who was there from the beginning, caring, loving, protecting, supplying their every need for life after birth.  Believe me, YOU are the parent or parents!  You are the “REAL” mom and dad!  Because my children are from Korea, people always wanted to know who their “REAL” mom was, and did I know her.  Inside I died at their ignorant questions, but I always answered, “I am their REAL mom”, the biological mother’s info was none of their business.  In every sense of the word “mother”, I am that person and so grateful to God for His merciful goodness to have my daughter and son . . .

There is a scene in the movie where someone answers Hannah’s questions about her arrival on this earth, and because of some other info she receives at this time, some brutal details are shared with her about the abortion process.  I read some media reviews about the movie, and one from the The New York Times equated the movie with false compassion, using the language of fear and guilt and portrays the info given to Hannah in this particular scene as reminiscent to bloody placards used outside of abortion clinics, showing fetal mutilation.  Well . . . excuse me, but that is exactly what happens during an abortion, depending upon the method used.  The baby IS mutilated and torn apart, to remove it from the mother’s body.  Read about abortion procedures such as, suction and curettage or dilation and evacuation.

People are upset when they hear the REAL details, and I would hope to the good Lord, they are.  They need to be.  What do they think happens, a magic wand is waived over the mother and the baby goes painlessly to heaven?  The process is BRUTAL.  It’s why pro-life people are so enraged and passionate about letting women know what really happens when they make THE CHOICE.

How does The New York Times critic equate someone loving and caring for someone elses child and raising it as their own, to false compassion?  Caring about what happens to the mothers choosing abortion and their physical and mental health, is that false compassion?  That boggles my mind.  Adoption and truth are the very picture of God’s love, here on earth.  There’s been so much purposefully wrong information given to women, so much language strategy used to make people think that unborn children are not human beings by refusing to use the nouns child or baby.

I love all of you reading this.  I’m quite passionate about the lives of our little ones, so dependant upon us, and about the lives of women who believe the lie that abortion is the answer to their problem.  God is the answer.  Only He can resolve what needs to done for the women and their babies. 

Give them life.  Give the babies a chance. 

I do love you.  Believe me . . . this is not easy to write about post after post, and it tears my heart out when I think of all the pain and beautifully broken lives in this vast world, where everyone is trying so hard to make the right choices.

You and your children are in my prayers.

Donna

Denial And Rationalizing Our Decisions

When a situation or circumstance in our life is particularly difficult or questionable in the eyes of God and/or society, one way people attempt to deal with the problem is to tell themselves it doesn’t exist.  That’s denial, and it solves nothing, except to delay pain.  Inevitably, we’re forced to deal with the issue which usually our denial has exacerbated.

When we do decide to act, we think about how our response to the problem will best suit our own needs. Therefore, the path we choose to solve the situation has a predetermined destination.  Arrive where we want to end up without jeopardizing our moral integrity and keeping guilt as far away as possible.

There was a period in my life I faced one of these extremely difficult decisions.  I denied my actions were what they were, I told myself I was doing nothing wrong and if the other person involved in the situation had done what they should have done, I would not be in the pain I was in, or dealing with hard choices.  Although there was truth in the very things I just stated, ultimately, I did have other paths to take.  I did not choose them.

Ironically, at this most painful time in my life, I heard from my old grade school sunday school teacher, Mrs. H., I’ll call her for this post.  I was forty years old, and hadn’t spoken with her for at least twenty years.  My teacher was an intercessor.  A prayer warrior, as I like to call them.  She was eighty years old, lived alone, and told me the last time I spoke with her, the greatest joy in her life was having conversations with God. Which, at the time I thought, “how nice for you.”

Now, twenty years later, she proceeded to tell me God had spoken to her about me, and that I was in trouble and she should pray for me, which she did.  But that wasn’t enough for Mrs. H.  She found my phone number and called me.

When I recognized her voice on the phone, I froze.  She began telling me she missed seeing me, and how was I and my family.  I remember lying, telling her everything was fine, which it wasn’t, and all I wanted to do was get off the phone.  I knew she wouldn’t go easily, and she didn’t.  She asked if there was anything she could pray with me about.  I thanked her and bluntly said, “no.”  I knew her well enough to know, God, would be in her next statement or question, and He was.  She told me again, God wanted her to pray and she wanted to hear my voice.  I know now, she was following the direction of the Holy Spirit who had urged her to call me, as well as pray for me.

I did not handle the call well.

You see, I had already decided how I was going to end the bad situation in my life, and there was no way I would let her or God dissuade me from that choice.  I rejected her help, and in no uncertain terms, told her I did not want to talk to her anymore about my family, and that I did NOT want her to pray for me!  She was hurt, but told me she obeyed God, and she loved me, and would continue to pray for me.  The conversation ended.  I had made my decision, and neither she nor God was going to make me feel guilty about it.

What I didn’t realize at the time was, God talked to Mrs. H. out His great love for me and my family. I had rejected her help out of my pain and determination not to feel guilty about my choice.  In my mind, if she or others like her were kept at a distance, I was safe.

Rationalization and denial are coping methods, nothing more.  They do not equate to truth.

Before a woman has an abortion, a child lives and breathes in her body.  After the abortion, the child is dead, and you participated in that death.  If you chose, or are thinking about choosing the path that’s best suited to your own interests such as abortion, your child will die.  There’s no other way to say it.  Political correctness has drenched our culture with these rationalizing lies about the unborn and a woman’s right to choose.

For a time and for the immediacy of the situation, we may be successful in setting aside the thoughts and fears about abortion being death for the baby, but those thoughts will surface again.  And when they do, what will the consequences be to us, our families, and society?

I write this hoping you will consider every path available to you such as adoption, and not just the road leading to what you have convinced yourself, is in your best interest.  Death is not in the best interest of the baby.

I know Mrs. H. is smiling in heaven.  Her prayers for me were answered many years after our phone conversation.

I send my love and prayers to all of you reading this.  See my contact page and email or write me.  I’d love to answer you.

Donna

All-Sufficient God

The memories of this past holiday season are sealed in my heart.  I was blessed to have my son’s and daughter’s families at home for Thanksgiving and Christmas this year which of course included both my grandsons!  My children are not often home at the same time, and I cherished the special days together.

Grandsons . . . I have two, and if it’s God’s plan, they’ll be more grandchildren.  God’s intentions for us are always good.  I remind myself of this when I can, because I remember a time I was certain I’d never be a mother, let alone a grandmother.

Everyday God’s goodness amazes me. Jeremiah 29:11 tells us God has good plans for us, plans to give us hope and a future, and even though these words were spoken by God in the old testament to the children of Israel, when you become a christian, you become heirs to God’s promises to Abraham as well.  God has good intentions for all our lives, but He has requirements as well.

Jeremiah also tells us God wants to prosper us.  Prosperity in the scriptures means sufficiency in all things, God’s grace abounding toward us.  In order for us to receive His bounty in every area of our lives, He wants us to first seek Him and His kingdom, and when we do, He promises to care and provide for us.

In my post, Adoption An Answer For The Pain, I shared my heart with you about my infertility, miscarriages and eventual adoptions.  After ten years of infertility and my first miscarriage, I gave up on everything, including God.  My pain swallowed me; and I was sick to death of listening to women complain about their kids and motherhood, or not wanting to be pregnant at all.  God, in His loving mercy allowed me to grieve and heal, and eventually I returned to His arms of forgiveness and hope, even though He’d never let me go to start with.

God had blessings planned for me.  His path was different than I’d thought of for my life, but oh, how good His ideas were for me.

If you still wait for a child, or you’re pregnant and don’t want to be, don’t give up on God. He’s not given up on you.  He wants you to have a child; perhaps through natural birth or adoption, or maybe foster care.  He is the God of life.  If you’re considering abortion, wait and seek Him first.  Allow God’s Holy Spirit to speak to you and share His good intentions for both you and your baby.

He is the “all-sufficient one” who never slumbers or sleeps.  God cares about every detail of your life and He will sustain you.

Over time, I healed  after my miscarriage.  I prayed.  I cried out to God.  I wanted peace.  I wanted what He wanted for me because I’d come to the realization He wanted only good for me.  I stepped back and let go of my baby quest, and in His great compassion, love and timing, God brought my baby daughter into my life.  He’d wanted this for me all along.  God never let go of me and He used one woman’s choice for life to be the answer to my prayers.

He’ll do the same for you, no matter what side of the motherhood equation you’re on.

Seek Him first.  You and your child will never regret it.

Donna

 

Reconciliation Prayer

A few years ago I wrote a prayer for reconciling my heart with my son.  I’ve prayed it often about other people and circumstances, but mostly in regard to my attitude.  Time has brought the gift of wisdom in a few areas at least, and when the Holy Spirit reminds me to first remove the log from my eye so I can pray for others about the speck in theirs, I hasten to do so.

If you’ve read my posts, you know I have two children who are adopted.  I am their mother in every sense of that word and that includes the stresses, tensions and disappointments experienced by both the parent and the child.  My children bring me great joy and love, but we are human beings, and with that, we get the flaws and the pain as well.  Here is my prayer.  Use it as a guide to help in your life and parenting experience.

Reconcile my son to me.  Reconcile me to my son.  Cleanse us both and set us free from me verses him and him verses me.
Lord Jesus, dig up the lies from our hearts and expose them to the light of your truth.  Purge us, renew our minds and our hearts.
Cover us with your blood sacrifice.
Create in me a clean heart.  Give me yours.  Forgive us, both.  Protect us.
In your mercy, restore the time lost with joyful expectation.  Replace old memories of both our disappointments with fresh hope in you, Jesus.  Give us joy, belief, faith, certainty and the freshness of your Holy Spirit.
Grant us the restorative power of Your love.
Thank you for making us a family.  Help us always to remember how much we love each other.
Let it be this day as you led me to pray.  Amen!”
Donna

 

 

A Mother Will Do Anything For Her Child

I want to address this post to the women who are considering abortion.  If you can, take hold of the stress, confusion and pain, and make yourself think beyond now and think of the future of the precious life growing inside you.  Think about your future.

All the voices bombarding you, tell you abortion will solve everything for everyone involved and that your life and the life of the man involved will return to normal.  But in reality, the only person who can make the decision is you.  I’m asking you not to listen to anyone telling you abortion is the answer until you’ve found a quiet place, cried out to God and waited a week to give Him a chance to speak to you and intervene in your life and the life of your child.  As a mother, you owe yourself and your child this chance.

Yes, if you’re pregnant, you’re a mother.  Right now.  The baby is just living inside you instead of in your home.  The location does not make your child less of a human being, and does not make you less of a mother.  Think of any pregnant woman you know or have been around; the first thing the doctor does is advise you how to care for your child by caring for yourself.  Don’t drink, smoke, take drugs, have x-rays, make sure you take vitamin supplements, eat right, rest, ect. etc..  You’re the mom, it’s up to you to make sure you do everything you can to protect your baby.  Abortion does not protect your baby, and it does not protect you.  Abortion ends your child’s life and can seriously damage your own.

Women who abort have an 81% chance of experiencing major mental health and addiction issues after aborting.  See my post When God Says.  Abortions can lead to infection, a higher chance of breast cancer and many other health issues, and you may face the possibility of not conceiving  or carrying a child to term when you do decide you want one.

Isaiah 49:15 asks, “Can a woman forget her child?”  I think not.  Abortion will not keep the child and it’s death from your heart or mind.  I know.  I’ve lost two children through miscarriage.  There’s hardly a day I don’t think of them and grief still wells up inside me, and this pain is from miscarriage.  Not a choice I made.  I can’t imagine the heartache a woman must feel when she thinks about her abortion decision.

So, I ask you again.  Please wait.  Go to God, not clinics, friends, boyfriends or anyone else.  Just God.

Father God, I ask in the name of Jesus that You will speak to the hearts and minds of any women who are reading this post who are considering abortion.  I ask that they will cry out to You for help.  Reveal Your heart to them.  Show them how much You love them and quiet the voices around them who are urging them to abort. Quiet their minds and let them hear only Your voice.  You’ve given us free will.  You do not force us to do or say anything we do not want to.  That’s how much You love us.  Holy Spirit, come now and guide the choices being made. Speak life to the mother’s hearts because You love them and their children so much.  Amen.

Donna